Reflections

Today seems like a good day for some reflection on life, since as of today, I can no longer claim to be in my early 20's.

Yep.

26 today.

Holy crap.

Why didn't I get a freaking memo or something.



So I have been doing some reflecting on my life and where it is at. And I thought I would share some observations and thoughts with you.

There is a possibility that this could sound bad, I don't know how it is going to go from here on out. Just know I am not depressed nor contemplating anything stupid.

Work: What work? I am unemployed....For the second time....in 13 months. I graduated from college in 2005 with a 4.0 GPA on a 4.0 scale. Department Scholar. Top student in my department. But still, I am on the unemployment line. Royally sucks.

The strange thing about it, I have very little motivation to find something new. I had an interview last week, but my heart isn't really in it. I know that I don't want to go back to an office. I am totally burned out on sitting behind a desk all the time. I actually am looking at a possible home based business and then starting to build canoe paddles, guns, knives, clubs, axes and such-splitting my time. Then I could dictate my own schedule and not have to answer to anybody.

Health: The last visit I had to the doctor was about a year and a half ago as part of a wellness screening for work. Including a blood work-up. Basically-healthy as a horse. Cholesterol just about perfect. No high blood pressure. Only one problem....Overweight. And not a little bit. If you've ever heard of Morbidly Obese. That's me. At my worst, I was 434. It has come down some, but I could still damn near cut my weight in half and still be a good sized guy. My brother dropped a bunch of weight over the last few years and I am jealous as hell. If you've never been big, you don't quite understand how the world is for the fat. I try to not let it stop me from doing thing. Actually, I have amazed some friends at the things that I do accomplish being my size, but it still is a hindrance.

Dating: What the hell is that? Last date? Pull out the calendar to count. August 2008. Graduated August 2005. 2003-2004 Junior year. Yep. Last date was January 2004. 4.5 years ago. One date. Before that? No freaking clue. Hell. I'm a virgin. With no intention of changing it any time soon. At one point a couple years ago, I was actually told I needed to lower my standards. No chance in hell.

Life: WTF? I live with my parents. And am rapidly approaching creepy geek. I'm on the computer almost every night. From the Basement of a house (at least not my parents basement), I have played and for a while was damn near addicted to an online game (Call of Duty). The only thing missing is the glasses and stalker complex.


But the good stuff.

Family: I have a great family. Two great parents who have worked their butts off their entire lives to make sure my brother and I had all the opportunities we could want. They also instilled concept of civic duty and being active in community organizations. Lots of activity. I still have two grandmothers living and both are here it town. Their health is not the greatest, but they are still around. My brother has a wonderful wife and they welcomed their first child in April. The nephew is such a cute kid, I just wish I could go see him more often, but we always seem to have schedule problems, and the three hour drive is not condusive to quick trips for an evening or something. I have one aunt getting married for the first time next June. The other aunt is married to a really great uncle. Their three kids are around the same age as my brother and I. They are doing great, too. One is a private school teacher in D.C. and is trying to finish up her Masters Degree. Her twin sister is working in South America. And the brother is a Doctor of Physical Therapy.

Friends: One of the biggest blessing in my life is my friends. The Motley Crew. Dog, Squatchy, Evil People Inc., Lunchbox, SeanX, and me. 6 friends from High School. We've done some crazy shit. The re-enacting friends. Lots of them. Started out as folks I would only see at events, but now they are all good friends who I communicate with regularly, visit, shoot the shit. Like the old saying, "Friends are the Family you choose."






I guess life ain't too bad, even when your lost.